I blame society for telling me to use drugs. I went along with it to fit in. I don’t care about fitting in anymore, but I don’t think it was my fault for partaking given the social atmosphere. So why do I have to suffer these dreams that torment me about it? Do I have unresolved trauma related to it or some shit?
PS. I am straight edge now, I haven’t used drugs in a long time and don’t think about them while I’m awake at all. I prefer to be sober minded. The only part they play in my life is in occasional dreams apparently, which are usually negative and unpleasant.
I have tactile dreaming, meaning I experience physical sensations including pain in dreams, and in dreams like this I feel really physically unwell/nauseous and uncomfortable. It also happens recurringly, not just once, so I’d like to get to the bottom of how to stop it happening.