I self medicate with booze and drugs. No, it’s not healthy or doing me any favors.

A past version of me was doing heavy resistance exercise and cycling 4 days a week. That was the absolute best medicine ever. It made me so clear and calm.

Caffeine and weed.

But also, accepting that your brain is what it is. Don’t fight it. Find ways to work with it.

Some ideas.

Wherever you have a pile of something, put a basket. I used to have one laundry basket and it would end up unused, with piles of clothes all over the floor in lots of different rooms. Now I have three laundry baskets and no piles.

When it comes to putting things away, make it easy to put away, but hard to take out. If you make it hard to put away, you won’t put it away and you’ll probably lose it.

Reminders are only useful if you don’t ignore them. If you catch yourself ignoring reminders, change how the reminders come in, or change how the reminder sound. I’m on my third sound for my medication reminders. Switching it up helps.

See 2nd half of the post for some tips.

I’m going to echo what some others said: medication is usually effective and often so much so it feels like cheating. I know you’ve mentioned it’s impossible to get it where you live, but it’s very likely you are wrong about it:

Several years ago I moved back to my home country (Poland) only to learn that according to local regulation there is no such thing as an adult with ADHD. They reluctantly admit that ADHD exists, but only as a childhood condition. On top of that most doctors don’t like or straight up won’t prescribe anything psychoactive, even antidepressants. It took me a while to find a doctor that would prescribe me the meds I need, only to learn that what I was taking for years was not available in the country, so every 3 months I’ve had to go through entire target import procedure to get 90 days worth of pills.

It’s hard to get those meds in many countries, but people who need them and manage to get them share their experiences. Do some searching and you might find some help.

General tips:

• try to do small tasks immediately when you learn you have to do something
• if you can’t do something immediately write it down. anything not done or written down immediately has been cast into the void ;-)
• always carry a notepad and something to write on you
• increase friction of switching to something else. Sit down at an empty desk to do work, so you have to get up to do something else. Keep your phone in a pocket with a zipper, so you have to unzip it to take it out
• minimize impact. I tend to put down whatever I’m holding if distracted and completely forget where I put it, so I put an easily accessible catch-all bowl in every room. Most of the time I only have check the bowls
• routine is your friend, it makes it harder to get sidetracked and increases the part of your life that happens on autopilot
• if you see you are getting things done keep the flow going. don’t reward yourself with a break until you are ready do nothing productive for the rest of the day

Working at a desk/on a computer:

• remove absolutely everything from your desk that you can. ideally it’s mouse, keyboard, monitor. avoid having any snacks on the desk too.
• if you have people walking around you or behind your screen move or try to block them. A cubicle is surprisingly ADHD friendly
• block sound distractions. listening to regular music might not be a good fit here, but myNoise or focus@will works great for me
• phone in a pocket/purse. notifications off. if it has to be on the desk put it as far to the side as possible and screen down
• if you have people at work who are constant distractions have a serious conversation with them. after that conversation every time they interrupt what you are doing make sure to remind them: “I told you it’s going to take me half an hour to focus again, please be more mindful of that”
• disable all notifications and if you have to have them enabled set up filters to minimize what you see. Surprisingly in most workplaces checking you email 1-3 times a day is more than enough

My 2 pennies - forget positive affirmation. Don’t believe people that tell you that you can make it work if you change your attitude.

You sound depressed. Failing all the time will do that.

You need to explore your limits thoroughly and stay chill when you fail. Treat it as an experiment. Once you have a solid grasp of exactly what you can and cannot do, then you can start setting goals for yourself.

Experiment with every cognitive aiding technique you can find. Keep looking for new ones.

Dont worry about tasks or goals, just focus on you. You are the task, you are the goal.

What is brain scarring? I’m 40 and was diagnosed with ADHD at 37 or 38. Where I used to be passionate about things, that spot has been filled with passive suicidality. No matter what, I can’t seem to will myself to do anything anymore. Habits I know will help me seem to fizzle before I can feel better doing them.

Having ADHD sucks for getting tasks done, but when the whole process of bettering yourself or your surroundings feels pointless, the only result is to wait to die, I guess. I hate this world.

Exercise makes a big difference for me. Running outside is where I find the biggest impact. Something about the repetitive motion, being in a different, constantly changing environment and time to myself helps me center myself, and helps even afterwards (usually a day or two.) I know running isn’t for everyone, but you might try some sort of exercise that you enjoy.

I also have a standing desk and recently got a cheap walking treadmill that can move under it or out of the way, and those sometimes help when I’m finding it impossible to focus. I realize the treadmill isn’t accessible to everyone, but I’ve literally made a standing desk out of boxes a couple times, if you want to just give it a try.

I know that neither of these are guaranteed, but might be worth a try to see if they help a bit. Good luck and I hope you find some things that help a bit.

Everyone is totally different when it comes to medication I find. I tried the stimulant types myself and they ended up overwhelming me and giving me very bad anxiety if I wasn’t able to get tasks completed.

I switched to a non-stimulant version and definitely don’t feel any of the same things I used to feel.

I’m just trying to iterate that meds aren’t always perfect even when they are an option.

I think for the most part though, my biggest help has been knowing I have ADHD and just having to learn to give myself breaks when I need it and not be so hard on myself when I’m not able to push myself to complete certain tasks.

ADHD is amazing when you find something you’re so interested and passionate about, however those things can sometimes be few and far between and you can’t expect your brain to behave in a neurotypical manner in those other instances. Don’t hold yourself to unreasonable standards.

I just don’t really care. Don’t need to be “functional” if you don’t expect to do anything much. I’m just happy with whatever :)

Also I do finish things. Just with lots of interruptions and forgetting in between.

I use a calendar and reminders constantly. For everything. Anytime someone says something I need to remember, I whip out my phone and create a calendar event or a reminder right then and there.

I have many mechanisms some work sometimes some work other times. I always carry a notebook and pencil and write everything down. Shopping, todo, where I Parker my car, etc etc.

Medication is a god send when it comes to studying. Chugging coffee helps as a way to start a task. I use nicotine to apply pavlovian conditioning to myself. Good sleep hygiene is incredibly necessary (doesn’t always work but helps). I write a todo list for tasks for the next day before I go to bed. I deleted almost all social media cos its pure addiction.

I turned off notifications for almost everything except direct messages. I have a scheduled do not disturb for sleep and work etc.

I avoid losing things by giving them 1 specific place that said thing belongs and its either in its place or in my hand.

I have other strategies but I can’t remember them rn.

CBD helped me for a while, tons of digital timers, to-do lists, and calendar appointments, but what really changed things for me was meds. What is your reason for wanting to avoid meds?

I am on the lowest possible dose of the only non-stimulant ADHD medication (Stratera a.k.a. Atomoxetine). All it did was tame the brain squirrels but I am still me.

Sending love from another part of the world my friend, not being able to get actual medical care for a debilitating issue sounds miserable 🫂

Cacao is really good for dopamine. There are studies on this. Regular dark chocolate doesn’t cut it though.